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Is there anyone out there with a Vista installer?

I left Felix with my brother yesterday as I left for shooting. We wrapped up at 6AM today, and the first thing I did when I came home was turn my laptop on to blog about the experience. It gave me the safe mode prompt, and then informed me there was something wrong with the OS. WTF. By then, my brother has most probably already arrived at Naval. Too far away for me to avenge my baby.

Grrr. I'll be going to the HP service center once I've gotten a massage and slept. That's right after I clean my room of my brother's smell.

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The Shoot's over (Yay!!). it was a very taxing experience, but I learned a lot. Apart from starting late, or having to take 5 hours to do one scene mainly because we had only one camera and a very meticulous crew, the people were fun to work with and watch.

- I went to the longest Wedding Party I've ever attended. And it was mine too. Harvey's gown was a beauty. I just wish I had the patience to turn the petticoat the right side out to keep me from feeling uncomfortable for most of the shoot. My groom was telenovela guy good-looking (think like a Ken Doll). The only guest I knew was Sam, who became my impromptu maid of honor. The music was okay, the decorations were interesting, and my mother in law was at least distant. I wanted to puke.

On my actual wedding day, I won't be wearing white. Maybe gold and red, but not white. The music will involve cellos and lutes instead of guitars. There will be glass trees and technicolor fruits and loads of vines so that the flowers dont feel so lonely and dont look so dead. The officiator shall be in a cloak and it shall be held in a fort or on top of a hill in a monastery somewhere instead of in those modern day cement abominations you people call churches.

I shall get tattoos instead of rings. Because tattoos need surgery to remove. The very idea of getting a tattoo on the tender part of the finger will be one of the few reasons the groom will have cold feet. Yes, marriage to me is do or die. I can't even live with myself. Which is why it's going to be so difficult. So Sam, it might not be possible for you to say you're doing the maid of honor thing for me a second time.



- I got kissed yesterday. I froze and thought of the things I'd lost, and how much I'd wanted to keep innocent about the things that people usually lose first along with their innocence.

I wouldve wanted my first kiss to have been special. An accident maybe. At least with someone I could've remotely liked. He promised he'd just kiss the corner of my lips. He ended up kissing the right side of my mouth.

I felt the flesh on my lips. And then I felt numb. And then cold. And then something inside my brain was tearing apart, screaming. And then I wanted to run away. I knew I was internally overreacting, so I just sat down and listened to Ayna try to calm me down. She was apologetic about having me do the scene, so was Jose. But it was over. I was embarassed for having delayed production with the fit, but it was over. And it was as if nothing had happened.

The tub scene was easier. I managed to get out of showing too much skin. Much cleavage tho, but not too much flesh. Cuddling I can take. I been hugged once or twice aredi and got the panic attack for getting hugged by a guy over and done with sometime in the past, so that it felt nothing. The dude was shivering though. Muehehehe.

Then we did the proposal scenes, and the car accident. The movie will be showing on December 22.

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In other news, I can finally focus on enrollment. I have my subjects down pat, cept for an elective and PE. I'm trying to get into Arnis, and Ranada's convincing me to take up Broadcast Advertising. And I thought all my subjects would be about paperwork this sem, completely day and night with last sem where all my subjects were about some form of production.

Oh shiet. I suddenly remembered Felix is dead. So much for spending lovely afternoons in the quiet of my room while typing papers on my lovely laptop. T_T

/jpb